It’s Been A While..

It’s been a while (there’s a song there, somewhere) since I have mustered up the ability to sit down at this computer, specifically stop, think about and write about what has been occurring..  It’s been an eventful 2-3 weeks and I have neglected my internet social circles, only popping on to display new paintings and pop onto Twitter for a quick how-do-you-do.  For that I apologise, I have had (thanks to the old email updates) a quick nosey at what everyone else has been up to now and then which is always good 😉

The last time I had a good natter was when we had just received our visitor.  Oh My Days.  Our home has barely survived, Sylvester practically became a street cat, we almost divorced each other.  As lovely as Molly-The-Hyper-Active-St.Bernard-who-thought-she-was-small-enough-to-be-a-bouncy-puppy is, she was just Too Big!  On walks she would pull on the lead and you were in danger of being dragged behind her, hanging on for dear life with both hands like in the cartoons (you dare not let her go, she would be off, scaring the life out of small children and their perants.  Probably run off with a small child thinking they were playing ball).  With slobber all over tables, chairs, clothes, hair all over EVERYTHING and Poos as big as small cats were too much for us.  The good thing about all this though is My Dorchester and I have decided that we are definitely not parent material.   The loved up ‘I-love-you-so-much-I-want-your-babies’ fluffyness has been satisfactorily squished and brushed under the sofa for now, for fear the baby/ies will be shoved into the garden every other hour of the day, never to be allowed in any of the rooms in the house and locked in the living room while we relax and enjoy such things as  clean clothes.

Safe to say Sylvester is OK now.  He did not run off and live with a quiet old lady down the road, and he has not stressed himself out and made himself ill again (touch wood. Long storey).  Satisfied the monster has finally been vanquished from his castle home, he has rubbed himself along every possible piece of furniture in the house and is back into his usual routine of scratching and meowing to be let outside the front door just as I fall asleep at night and meowing at our bedroom window at 6am to be let back in the front door, then scratching at the bedroom door to be fed half an hour later (Why would we need children when we have the cat which is like one, anyway?).

Good news though!  I have finally got my hands on a new job  9-5!  Evenings, weekends, bank holidays, Christmases and New Years off, Hurrah! (I’m a ‘normal’ person again!)  I went to a couple of interviews in the past week, one good, one not so good I haven’t even heard back from the interview (don’t ask).  It got to the point I was very stressed out, the situation at my office and the situation I was in, it made me very down and low.  It was getting progressively worse at the company, I had bad hours and could not get my head in gear and find time to study, I could not sleep properly and altogether made me not a very nice person to share a space with.  But fortunately, thanks to a friend of ours (who had also worked for the same company and so knew what it was like) I was put in touch with an agency and have a position which is within the same industry but a Good step up. WooHoo!!

But during this hectic period I kept painting at least.  I am the type of person who needs to find a way to be productive, within anything, even if it is not the intended finished subject, it helps to keep the mind positive.

‘With all it’s sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world’ – Desiderata

I experimented with ‘Finger Painting’.  I love this style, I love the fact I make a painting with my actual hands.  I made a couple of Sunset ‘Abstract Landscape’ types this way and they came out pretty good, I like the expressionist style, I love the way the paint blends and sits on the canvas, I like how your eyes are not given the direct and completed picture, your imagination needs to play a part to see the scene.  This is, in my opinion, one of a few fantastic styles like this, because the person viewing the painting gets more involved than with just getting a completed pretty picture to look at.  You get to find your own picture within the painting and I think it becomes more personal.

I have also made a painting for an old friend who I recently came back into contact with.  We share birthdays a few days apart and being as it’s such a fantastic thing to be back in each others lives (she literally lives just down the road from us, as it turns out) I thought making a painting would be something nice to do.

I am currently trying to master figures.  I love the shape of the human body, and I used to be able to sketch them but I seem to have lost the ability with paint.  I would love to create facial expressions to go with the emotional shades of colour I like to use, maybe it is because I am older and have lost the sight/imagination I used to be able to freely grasp (or it could be just the fact I cannot draw faces?!) but practise makes perfect, as they say.

My Dorchester bought me some art stuff for my birthday a week ago.  I have only just mustered up enough courage to use the lovely acrylic paints he bought (they come in a foil tube and everything) I would never buy myself those because I am in no way confident in my ability to be happy with what I paint enough to spend that type of money, I just go for the plastic Reeves acrylics still which do me fine.   As if to panic me further, painting this new painting, I have ended up painting over it Twice, because I could not seem to find the right colours, and was not happy with it.. but maybe it could have been the fact I was so concious of wanting to get it perfect that I messed it up?

My Dorchester and I  heatedly disagreed about this one, I asked him what he thought, he told me ‘I dunno babe, it’s not my favourite, the colours are a bit bland like, why don’t you just paint an Abstract Landscape?’ I could have bitten his head off.  I posted an ‘In Progress’ picture on Facebook too.  A friend of mine commented: ‘What’s wrong with her boobs?’ (she is Danish and she is quite brash with her words) I said: ‘They are quite big’ She says: ‘They are deformed!’ I say: ‘Is it that bad?’ To which she replied: ‘Depends what your trying to say’.  At this point I was pissed off, thinking: ‘Can’t anyone look at a painting that’s not obviously a true representation and not expect a perfect replica of whatever it is?!’ My Dorchester pointed out, why did I post on Facebook if I didn’t want comments?  I advised I wanted comments but I want them coated in sugar (I storm off at this point to re-do the boobs).  I replied to my Danish friend: ‘I am not trying to say anything, just wanted to paint a figure, and at this point she seems to be suffering abnormal boobs.’  To which my Danish friend replies; ‘Well no one is perfect, I guess!’.

To finish off my post I have added a few tunes for you enjoy..

It’s Been A While – Stained

From My Painting Playlist 🙂

Faithless & Dido – Flowerstand Man

Eels – Beautiful Freak

I shall try my best to write another, more constructive and informative blog soon.. Hope you all have a fantastic Monday! 😉


Born Procrastinator!

I previously shared how excited I was about beginning to study and how there was going to be no time to be brandishing my paintbrush upon any canvases in the immediate, foreseeable, future as I was going to be hard at it etc.

The past few days have consisted of awkward shifts at work, chokka weekends, also we now have the worlds most slobbery, excitable, loved up, mahoosive St. Bernard come to stay for two weeks which my cat, Sylvester, (who is an ‘only child’ and has never met a dog, let alone one the size of a bear with A.D.D) is not best pleased about.  Safe to say, as he spent the night outside on upstairs’ windowsill and then the best part of 5 hours under the bath (no I correct myself; behind the wall which he got to from under the bath.  Please do not ask how he got there and how we got him out).







I am also still on random shifts at work which means working this weekend and nights next week.  I shall take this opportunity to add my partner is allergic to cats, and so he is of no use what-so-ever with dealing with my awkward, only-child, snob of a cat.  Yes, I called my cat a snob.. can you not tell by the picture that he is a fussy, awkward bugger?  I don’t molly-coddle him either, he obviously just takes after me far too much!).

So this is going to be an entertaining two weeks!  I can be thankful though, that the bear of a St.Bernard is used to cats so at least she is not chasing poor Sylvester in laps around the flat, he can just quiver in the corner of one of our rooms in peace.  She is called Molly,  Molly Moo.  Molly Moo is the most loveable thing I have ever met, all she wants to do is play, and bark at cars while sitting in the middle of the road, and steal footballs from children (or any toys from any willing children for that matter).  You can never be mad and leave her outside in the garden for too long for slobbering all over your suede handbag, she is just a big dumb cuddly bear!






Despite all this ruckus (how do you spell that word?!), I have in-fact managed to wield my paintbrush over some canvas.  I have found no moment to pull together my brain and gear it up for any serious studying, but I have created three new artworks!  I figured, if I cannot be productive one way I can damn well still channel my frustrations this way 😉  Praise procrastination!

Sharing (&Selling) My Art With The World!

New art is being shown and available to purchase through my gallery:

So exciting! I am chuffed to bits, feeling more and more like a ‘real’ artist everyday.  It is one thing expressing yourself through art but it is another thing having thr balls to put it out there and open yourself up to millions of people, making yourself vunerable to judgement and critisism (as if critisizing and judging yourself is not enough already!?).

There is an immense satisfaction and a sense of accomplishment in seeing my paintings included amoungst so many fantastically talented and accomplished painters on this gallery.  I never could have predicted I would be going in this direction with my hobby, this time a year ago!  Just goes to show, anything can happen, as the great Seasick Steve once said. 😉


I am starting a bookkeeping course this week online, and I also have an NVQ Level 2 in Customer Service that I should be paying more attention to, so I will be putting the paintbrush down for a bit.  Hopefully I will find some time to write about one or two of my musings in the next coming month.  No doubt I will need to vent some frustration with regards to trying to find a quiet moment to get my very stubborn brain to consentrate on becoming a ‘student’ again.  Why I thought Bookkeeping would be a good idea for someone like me, I forget.  Oh yes, the notion of making lots of money somewhen down the line.. that better happen!

Check out my gallery, I hope you like my stuff. xx

New Art Work!

So instead of catching up on collage work on my two days off, I of course got stuck into and completed a new piece of artwork!

These are my latest editions, I am having so much fun experimenting, learning.. each painting has it’s own wee storey behind it (if I told you each one you would be here forever!) but most importantly just creating something and being able to say ‘I did that’ is the greatest thing for me at the moment.   Please take a look and enjoy 🙂


I threw all thought out of the window on this one and had not much plan at all.  The canvas (but it’s not a canvas, it’s actually a piece of thin MDF type board I found outside of someone’s door that I stole),  was actually going to be something completely different, I think that’s why I love this painting it completely grew into itself and it’s a piece of board I found on the street.  Personally, you cannot get much purer than that in a piece of art in my opinion.

I wanted to add the quote from Desiderata on this piece (which is written along the outside of the thigh).  This has become a piece of artwork that to me represents life and what you can make it.  I found a huge dirty piece of board off the street, scraped of the paper and used tissue paper saved from gifts, whacked in some sand from an epic day at the beach into the acrylic and created a pretty decent piece of art.  Just goes to show, it’s what you make of it.


This piece is again on a piece of board I rescued off the street (I think I have made a habit of this).  When I was younger I was at odds with a lot of things in my life, including myself.  I used to sit in my room on my own a lot, listen to music, smoke pot and draw.  One thing I used to draw quite a bit of (and I wish I had saved my drawings now I am ‘an artist’ as I could capture them like I never used to then) was faces.  Split faces, to be exact.  It was like a representation of how I felt in my head, split between to types of people, torn in two with trying to figure out what the F*** was going on in my head being a confused young person.  This pastel and acrylic creation is a partial of how I remember I used to create my face back then.  Being older and (a little) wiser about myself I could not capture half of the anguish within it like before, but I am glad I have created something from my past.  I was never able to introduce colour into my sketches back then, It’s nice to know I have learnt a little 😉








Dreamer is kind of a self portrait.. It reminds me of myself, in my own little world, my own pleasant bubble, just thinking about all the things that makes me happy.







This artwork is inspired from an earlier piece I created as a gift for a friend.  I wanted to create a bigger version of the lady once I had improved my technique.  I think she may be my currant favourite lady, just because I am so happy with the way I have captured her wings.








I am not quite sure why this one is untitled, I was sure I had a name for her as she came into being (Maybe it is because a certain Dorchester keeps taking the micky out of my ability to only create fairies!?).  I know he is joking, but in defence I love fairies and angels, they can represent so much.  Anyhow, this picture here is my first accomplishment with clouds.  As simple as they are and as this picture is, I am quite proud at this little detail.  Most of my pictures are fairly abstract and expressionist, so every little realistic detail I get my brush around is OK in my book (Anyway Sod Him, I would like to see him try and paint a fairy). 😉

Words From Oscar Wilde

‘The critic has to educate the public.  The artist has to educate the critic.’

‘Ordinary riches can be stolen, real riches cannot.  In your soul are infinitely precious things that cannot be taken from you.’

‘I have the simplest tastes.  I am always satisfied with the best.’

‘Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.’

New Paintings In Progress

Just a couple of new paintings on the way, I like to view my work in progress as I go, it gives me a clean perspective each time I look back..  I also still get quite excited about my work and I am a bit impatient to show pieces off (and why shouldn’t anyone?!) plus see what sort of reaction people give (if any) and also I am a shameless self promoter of course 😉

Any comments/advice would be great.. Thanks! xx

Keeping the juices flowing.. (Take 2..)

I have two days off this week, so hopefully this will mean two whole days of painting time!  As it happens, now I have figured out how to do these photos and written the blog of what happened to alleviate the pain, it is now 2.30pm..(Please see ‘Techno Failure Rage’).

I have found that finding the time to sit and become immersed in your creativity at the same time as your creativity wanting to get in line is a tricky thing.  All of the day to day cr*p we deal with that demands our time, as well as making sure we do not forget the people we share our time with, does not generally leave much time for ourselves.  Whether it be a soak in the bath with your favourite book for an hour, finding a couple of hours to go through your blogs andfellow bloggers/Twitter/FB Page or sitting and studying for a couple of hours, or just hopping on the train to go and see your best mates new place, time seems to be so much shorter for all of the things we want to fit in.


Scheduling a bath or whatever is one thing.. but you cannot schedule your brain to study or paint (Well, I cannot seem to do that, anyway).  So my plan is going to be two to three hours for study time and blogging (it has taken me three hours to write my blogs and re-do this one) which should be ample time for my brain to get in gear and then that canvas is going to be all mine for the full day..  a bottle of wine, my Chinwags from Dorchester, a couple of canvases, some good tunes = Good times!

It is all I shall really get in the next couple of weeks to finish my two projects, the coming weekends are pretty full.  It is my Knight in Shining Armour, Dorchesters’ birthday next weekend we have a chocca weekend planned for that (of which I cannot speak at this time *wink*) and then a lovely lady friends’ birthday the next so it is all go at the moment!

Together with shift work at the telesales office I unfortunately work and seem to be stuck at (of which a few people around this small globe can most probably relate to in some way, I am sure) grabbing a few hours of pure unadulterated shameless cleansing for the soul can be tricky.

Every day I try and remind myself that even though there are so many things grabbing at you, demanding your time, testing your sanity, chipping away at the protective shield you have tried to keep built to protect what resistance you have from the Cr*p that keeps testing you, there are still so many things to be thankful for..

Thankfully I can look around and count on one hand, some wonderful things and people that keep my bubble from popping, and I can keep painting some pretty OK pictures 🙂


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